I think I need help…

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I think I need help…
Hello everyone. I think I might have a problem and I have no idea how I might solve it. You know, years ago, I discovered a pantie fetish. As youngster I stole panties from my neighbors, just to wear them while I masturbate. It was not, because I felt the neighbors sexy, but because I loved the feeling of the material and the knowledge, that these are female underwear. Later I included even a bra and stockings to it.
But I did this not often, because I not felt the desire so often. Over the years I even stopped completely.
Today I am married, but it is not really a good marriage. We not have much sex for example. So I started masturbating and watching porn. I always knew, that I am bisexual, so I watched much gay and shemale content together with “usual” porn. I even güvenilir bahis şirketleri bought different toys, like a flashlight and such.
One day, I stumbled across sissy-porn. I directly felt extremely turned on, by the behaviour, clothes and the overall … naughtiness of these sissies. But I not wanted to bang them, I wanted to be like them. At first I not really fully realised that, but after a few hours of sissy-porn.
Later the porn pages suggested me sissy Hypnosis videos. Of fuck, I loved it so much! I watched that stuff for hours and felt so horny. I just wanted a nice daddy to come to me and make me his girl! So I started to fill my shopping cart on Amazon with hot sissy clothes and such. I create accounts on different porn pages, seeking horny daddies. But tipobet when I came, I directly felt ashamed and emptied the cart and deleted my accounts. That happened many times. I tried to stop because the ashamed and guilty feelings.
One day, my wife went on a trip alone. I felt horny and wanted to try pantie-sniffing. So I bought used panties from a chubby girl online. She send me her bra too. First I really enjoyed sniffing the panties, but then the sissy in me kicked in. I put on the panties and it felt so naughty and hot. I jerked off, while watching different sissy content. Then I felt regret again and placed the underwear aside. I swor myself, to not do it again, just a bit sniffing and jerking.
As you might can imagine, just one or two days later I was dressed in bra tipobet giriş and panties, wearing lipstick and sucking a dildo while watching sissy-porn. And I loved it. I came so hard and much. And directly felt regret, shame and even fear. I saw myself in the mirror when cleaning up and felt ridiculous and disgusted.
After that, I placed the underwear to trash. I wanted to stop. I forced myself to not watch sissy stuff anymore.
I managed even to stay “clean” for a few weeks, but then it started again. Even now I struggle with the feeling and desire.
Just from the feeling and such … I would love now to dress up and please a guy. To suck and worship his cock like a good girl. To bend down and let him fuck me hard and as much as he wants. To receive his cumshot on my face, to lick the cum off and swallow it. To be simply his naughty girl and his slut. And at the same time, I know it is not me, I think. I know I would feel very ashamed, regretting and disgusted.
I don’t know what is happening with me. I don’t know, what to do. Can someone help me?

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